my crappy day

Their i am in my time block one math (hate it so much) well none of my friends were there so i was a loner for two hour that's right two hours,thank god we had a substitute.

Am sitting all alone and i try to talk to some guy named Dylan i think that his name,well i say ''so dylan'' and he just saw me and gave me a ''FUCK OFF'' look just i like i do to people (just for fun i do that).

I just turn around and go like'' no wonder you don't talk  to no'' one i said that to myself and then this two girls that usually talk about weird things were saying some stupid stuff that just was really annoying,and i got annoyed by them.

Next thing i see is Chance sleeping like always and tam eating candy and this girl that i hate so much (she's a punk) says ''tam give me some candy'' and tam just turn's around and says "NO".

I get up and go to the back of the room where i just listened to music like for 30 minutes and then the substitute said ''put it away until you finish your work''.

I say ''fine!!'' i just stared into space for the hole two hour's.

Am in my time last block, me and my friend cristobal just where messing around,and then like 10 mins later i start to laugh and people just stare at me like WHAT THE *****.

Finally the bell rings and am out,me and some other people are waiting for the buss to show up and after like 10 mins people just go walking and am like nop am not walking all the way over to my house that like 5 miles.

I call my sister to come and pick me up and then i wait for another 15 to 20 minutes.

I see the same people that left walking and am like well that sucks for them.

Am home and my mom says'' i saw the kid from your buss''and i say''the buss never came'' and she said well i saw him,so i missed the buss and am like what a waste of time.

Am just glad i didnt went walking.

one place to another life.

It suck's when you lived somewhere for 14 years. And you had you friends and girlfriend here but then your parent's wanna move back to their home country.

And you don't want to move back where your from because you've made a new life a new start but your parent's can't live their no more maybe cuz of immigration you cant live their because your not legal or money problems etc.

But you lived their all your life but they don't care.

So your back in your home country and everybody thinks your rich cuz you came back from u.s but your poor just like them.

So it's your first day of school and you have no clue of the teacher is teaching,automatically you have an "F" so their's you grade already doing horrible in school.

After school their's no one to hang out or chill with so your a loner.

So after a few day's you have friends your enjoying it.Oh wait you still are flunking the class you know the history from the other country but not your own country history.

You stay after school for your teacher to tutor your and you find out shes a bitch so you hate her.

You decide that the school is not for you, and their you are flipping burger's with low payment.

But think this way what if you went and studied in el paso that's u.s right you get your student study perment   . You would have thought maybe you had a shot in life.

 But a flashback come's to your mind you lived in your home country only until you were six years and you move to the u.s and come back when your 14-17.

You probably won't like it.But my dad says''school here in china and mexico,u.s is the same" and am like no its not damm it.

Because you have to get use to a new way to live.

some times this happen's and that life for you it can be a punk but hey never give up on yourself everyone can be some one in life 

FEAR..

Why are people so scared to be alone. I heard husbands,wife's,sons etc say to their dear one '' why have you left me,why, what am i going to do.

so i a thought comes to mind ''their crying because their alone not because their love one is gone''. 

its hard when someone close to you dies and you feel like no one is by your side. 

some people just dont care what goes one, and am included i didnt give a dam about nobody until now i know iwas wrong but here i am carrying about my friend's, family etc. 

But the things i did in the pass now am paying them for example; people dont care about me they think am shit am treated differently because am a nice a guy. but that is going away now.

But i worry because am becoming like my oldself and i dont want that. 

And i refuse to let people down that just not me i am where i need to be. 

idont know why people are scared to make friends, or just hate everyone around them and wish they would die .

some people are scared because they're being through allot worst things then me and you. but always give a hand out then a hand up. 

people can choose weather to get back up or stay down where everybody can squish you like a bug.

i know life is hard and it can be a bicth but that's life everywhere. so dont be scared we all have to face our fears never look down when your talking to a person always look them in the eye let them know you are serious and not afraid. 

humans slaves to machines

Now in century 21,humans depend on technology i mean technology is great with a small cellphone you can take around the world.

We use technology for wars to win the battles and loose the war sometimes why?because your or my enemy has a better equipment of technology,better guns,better bombs,etc.

But hold up now theirs 3D in televisions and cellphones"how does this work" i mean its amazing.

But wait what if technology everything that is considered electronic "DIES" what's gonna happen in my opinion everyone is gonna be freaked out. 

Why?because everything that is important is in the computers,flash drives.

Right now everything is computerized ,when you you stop at the red light what you have to stop but with no electronics,no red light that means people crashing,oh wait your insurance got you covered,wrong because you were in their system but not no more.

like ice cube said

 ''Yo, we in a fight for our lives

We in a fight for our lives
And the trick thing about it
I don't know if we can win
And what's sad? I don't thing we WANNA win''

This is true get we are depending on electric-equipment to much were all ways inside i think that's why too much people are sick,their always inside their house.

If this happens i hope were prepare because it's gonna be rough the money ain't gonna have no value, my question is what is gonna replace money for food.

I sure hope this doesn't happen to many people are gonna die of starvation and so many other things.

Kids ain't gonna be able to eat they'll have to rob or kill.The kids are the FUTURE but their ain't gonna be no kids when this happen so that means no future.

But if we go back to man power we might safe our self's and our family and also our world that is called " Earth" and continue on.

Time goes by and wont stop

Maybe Sometimes we want something so bad we want it so bad but then something new comes to the world better then the last thing its a upgrade.

   Technology can't stop and wont,Evan if it takes hundred years to upgrade a small piece but it will happen and it has, we went from men power and animal power to machine power, went from sticks and stones to guns and bombs.

We still use the same strategy's from the Mayans and so many other cultures or tribes etc.

The old things are use full if you know how to use them and what's its purpose. We need to use things wisely for right things but most of the times that aint the case.

   If we went back to the pass everyone we probably we wouldn't like because things would be different no ipads or cellphones we would hate it most of the people would. why because we are adapted to this world and how things are we are use to them.

Ill be honest i like my world things might not be so bright but am use to it. 

Everything has it bad side and its bright side. Don't always look at it from the bad side have a good look around because things will change in 20 years things might be bad or good.

spend your time well don't always be inside don't be shy.

Be happy their for you have life and your living. times are bad and good but it passes by.

Forget your pass look forward see that light its bright and its coming for you.

 

common sense

     People say o i have love for this and that but when the real moment comes to defend your 

gang or whatever they back out or say a lie .

i mean if you dont wanna be in a gang dont enter it do say i have for it or nothing like that because your just saying that your a wanna be .

now where i live in okc  their alot of gangs and alot of wanna be's who dont do anything but talk their shit but when someone comes up they say oo no men that wasnt me fool. i just say in my head  MIERDAAAAA.

why do people get in gangs maybe because they think its cool or their parents are in it or idont know really just my opinion

   I see little kids say o am from this but then the time passes by and they forget all about it. idont know what so special about gangs all you do is get high or kill people or tag something up

the people who are in gangs your homies or whatever say o i have your back bro but in the end your in jail no way out and their outside.

like if someone says go and steal this i got your back whos going to pay up if you get caught you are, not him he didnt do it you did. use common sense 

once you die your homies forget you who you were,the time passes by they moved on and so is everybody else 

same with soldiers they die and everybody forgets their names.

nothing new has change. gangs have existed for decades and will continue until we die are minds will clear up .

here is my saying '' forget your pass look forward you see that light its coming towards you.

Parte de mi vida

   Me acuerdo de mis amigos alexis y daniel esos eran mis compadres mis mejores amigos nunca piensaba qe me iva ir de mexico pero todo eso cambio con unos simples papeles.

Vi a mi hermano joel el mas grande diciendo no ogro yo no me voy alos estados unidos yo me quedo aqui a terminar la escuela mi apa respecto su decision. Pero yo piensaba que ivamos a Oklahoma nomas a ver mis primos. Cuando llegamos ala casa de mi tio davidad vi a mi primo edgar estaba acostado en el sofa apenas estaba despierto creo qe eramos dos. 

Unas semanas pasaron y vi a primo carlos llorando el se vino con nosotros a oklahoma y oi a carlos decir entre sus lagrimas'' no me quiero ir '' y yo piense entre mi mismo pero nomas estamos aqui para visitar no hojala que si '' y mi ama se fue para atras a a juarez por beto y ahi supe qe nos vinimos a a quedar aqui pero no supe por que, por cual razon. 

   Entre ala escuela y lo mas dificil era aprender ingles pero tambien era una ventaja por que si la maestra mi preguntaba decia '' no inglish'' y la maestra decia okay. rato paso y mi maestra me dijo este señor te va a enseñar ingles y yo okay. Era chida el maestro.

El tiempo se fue bien rapido demaciado rapido y nos cambiamos de casa una casa mas grande con 3 cuartos yo tube que compartir el cuarto con mi hermano beto. beto era como el afro men con un grande afro.

Y luego estamos en juarez voy ala escuela en juarez no entiendo de lo que ablan so mi maestra me puso carilla me tube que quedar despues de escuela y siempre tenia un chingo de tarea pero gracias a mi madre que me ayudo. areglamos las visas y para atras a los estados unidos y otra vez mi hermano joel se queda .

   Voy y ver mis amigos despues de una semana en estar en oklahoma. voy ala misma escuela john adams y me toca la misma maestra y creo que estaba enojada que tenia un estudiante de mas pero no se.

Entro a Roosevelt Middle school y el sexto grado era el grado mas dificil y largo siempre me alguien me molestaba ese grado lo odaiba. pero todo eso cambio sobre el tiempo.

Ahora estoy en el grado nueve y nunca se me olvida mis errores no se que va a pasar mañana ni pasado mañana nunca se me olvido mi hermano joel aun que el estaba en mexico y yo en los estados unidos siempre sera mi carnal. 

   Eh aprendido de mis errores para que no los aga otra vez

Todos acemos errores pero que nunca se te olvide quien eres